I break hearts like

imageofadork @ 2006-01-06T12:07:00

2006-01-06T17:08:05Z

Ew livejournal. I havent written in here in so long and I dont plan on writing in here right now either. :P Just need some place to put an amazing song, that I am completely in love with.

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

imageofadork @ 2005-11-01T12:08:00

2005-11-01T17:13:09Z

Its amazing how people can be so fake and do things to you that you'd never think they'd do in a million years, atleast not to you anyways. Or they say things you never thought they'd say about you. It makes you realize how a few close friends is all you really need in life and its scary how your trust for people can be taken away in a matter of secounds. I never knew people were so cold hearted and mean till last night, I knew there were some fucked up people out there but I didnt think it was people I actually care about. People I'd do a lot for, people who I considered to be my true friends but then they turn around and stab you in the back ten times harder then you thought was possible. When you do something, you should really think about what your doing and who you're really hurting before you do it cause your intentions could be all wrong. You try go to hurt someone and it all adds up and seems like you are but in reality you're hurting the wrong person, maybe its the person you actually care about. Or maybe you didnt care about them at all. I had such a reality check last night and it makes me sick to think people are so uncaring.

imageofadork @ 2005-10-29T23:26:00

2005-10-30T03:25:46Z

Aye may zing weekend
with aye may zing people.

first time I hung out with matt in like YEARS :)
and did I mention it was ayee may zing?

imageofadork @ 2005-10-22T20:41:00

2005-10-23T00:43:12Z

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:: Something Corporate
Are you female or male? :: Drunk Girl
Describe yourself:: Good News
How do some people feel about you:: I Want To Save You
How do you feel about yourself:: Down
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: Ruthless
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: The Runaway
Describe where you want to be:: Cavanaugh Park
Describe what you want to be:: 21 And Invincible
Describe how you live:: Not What It Seems
Describe how you love:: Falling For You
Share a few words of wisdom:: Watch the sky

imageofadork @ 2005-10-10T22:50:00

2005-10-11T02:52:21Z

So, I just wrote this big amazing update about this amazing weekend and it deleted for no reason. I am not writing it again, atleast not now. Maybe tomorrow, maybe not. But this weekend was awesome. If you want to know atleast a little bit of details go see Kirsties journal. I'm going to bed now that I wasted a 1/2 hour for nothing.

I ♥ Billy.
so much.

Ashley<3

imageofadork @ 2005-10-06T22:42:00

2005-10-07T02:42:58Z

i havent been this happy in a long time <3.

you heart gives mine reason to beat.

2005-10-05T02:08:46Z

So I decided I wanted to start writing in here again, it probably won’t last even though I’d like it too. What I really wanted was a new journal to ‘start fresh’ but there was no way I was changing my username so I deleted every single one of my old entries, found a new layout and tada, its good as new. I deleted some people off my friends list either cause I didn’t recognize the name or I didn’t know who you were, if you want to be added then tell me. I’m not in the mood to really update besides The Real World is coming on in 10 minutes, so if I started to update then I’d get cut off by The Real World or I’d sit here and ramble and end up missing most of The Real World. So I’ll probably end up updating tomorrow seeing I don’t have school :D.

[ ] I am a university student.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I am an awesome dancer.
[ ] I am a huge fan of lists.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I am a perfectionist.
[ ] I am a Republican.
[ ] I am allergic to something deadly.
[ ] I am an only child.
[ ] I am Catholic.
[x] I am content as of this moment.
[x] I am currently in my pajamas.
[ ] I am currently pregnant.
[ ] I am currently single.
[ ] I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
[ ] I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.
[ ] I am okay at styling other people's hair.
[ ] I am left handed. [[ I’m not but I know some loser face that is]]
[ ] I am married.
[x] I am obsessed with my myspace. [[ I’m not obsessed]]
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I am procrastinating by filling out this list.
[x] I am resentful that I have to grow up.
[x] I am very shy around the opposite sex.
[ ] I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I can be paranoid at times.
[ ] I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
[ ] I collect picture frames.
[x] I currently have a crush on someone. [[ well its kinda more then a crush lol]]
[x] I consider myself to be a 'nerd'.
[x] I currently regret something that I have done/am doing.
[ ] I curse frequently.
[ ] I do not believe people are inherently good or evil.
[ ] I don't hate anyone.
[] I enjoy country music.
[ ] I enjoy ...jazz music.
[x] I enjoy smoothies.
[x] I enjoy talking on the phone. [[ depends who I’m talking too]]
[ ] I have a car. but no license
[x] I have a mobile phone.
[x] I have a hard time paying attention at school.
[x] I have a hidden talent.
[ ] I have a hobby.
[x] I have a lot to learn.
[x] I have a pet. [[ 3 of them]]
[x] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[x] I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy.
[ ] I have all my (real) grandparents, none of them have died.
[x] I have at least one brother and/or sister.
[ ] I have avoided work to play with my myspace.
[x] I have been in a real relationship.
[x] I have been rejected by someone.
[ ] I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
[x] I have been to another country.
[ ] I have been to an anime convention.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[ ] I have been to Las Vegas.
[x] I have been told that I am very smart.
[ ] I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
[ ] I have broken a bone.
[x] I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
[ ] I have changed a diaper.
[x] I have changed a lot over the past year.
[x] I have cheated on a significant other...
[x] I have counted down the days until the summer.
[ ] I have dated my best friend's ex.
[x] I have done something illegal.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have gone scuba diving/snorkling.
[] I have had major/minor surgery.
[ ] I have had my hair cut within the last week.
[ ] I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
[ ] I have had the cops called on me.
[x] I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
[ ] I have kissed someone of the same sex.
[ ] I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
[x] I have mood swings.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
[x] I have seen the television show The O.C. [[ seen it? Watch it faithfully every week]]
[x] I have swam in the ocean.
[x] I have tried a drug that is illegal.
[ ] I have tried sushi.
[ ] I have watched Sex and the City.
[x] I have watched the television show Spongebob Squarepants.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I like being the center of attention.
[x] I like eating Ramen noodles. [[ I could live off of them]]
[ ] I like my handwriting.
[ ] I like Shakespeare.
[ ] I like the taste of blood.
[x] I like to cook. [[ but I cant]]
[x] I like to sing. [[“”]]
[x] I like to vacuum.
[ ] I love learning foreign languages.
[ ] I love Michael Jackson.
[x] I love my friends.
[x] I love olives.
[x] I love rain.
[x] I love sleeping.
[ ] I love to play computer games.
[x] I love to shop.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I own 100 CDs or more.
[ ] I own a home.
[x] I own and use a library card.
[ ] I play a musical instrument.
[ ] I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
[ ] I read books for pleasure.
[x] I shave my legs.
[ ] I sleep a lot during the day.
[x!] I strongly dislike math.
[x] I think Britney Spears is pretty.
[x] I think long strings of html code look cool.
[ ] I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
[x] I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
[ ] I was born in a country other than the USA.
[ ] I watch more TV this year than last year.
[ ] I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
[ ] I wear contact lenses.
[x] I will try anything once.
[x] I work at a job that I enjoy.
[ ] I would classify myself as ghetto.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I like orange kool aid.
[ ] I can name all 7 of the dwarfs from 'Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs'.
[ ] I like being at school.
[x] I always love wearing sweaters.
[ ] I love water polo.
[ ] I am currently wearing socks.
[ ] I am being nostalgic right now.
[ ] I hate summer.
[x] I am tired.
[ ] I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.

I have....
[x] been drunk.
[x] smoked pot.
[ ] done ecstasy.
[ ] done coke.
[ ] done crack.
[ ] done heroin.
[ ] done opium.
[ ] done PCP
[ ] done LSD.
[ ] done CCC's.
[ ] done prescription narcotics for recreational purposes.
[ ] done mushrooms.
[ ] huffed air-duster.
[x] been to a rave.
[x] been to a real party.
[x] kissed someone.
[ ] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x] been dumped.
[x] been used.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] ran from the cops.
[ ] been in a room of your school that you could get suspended for being in
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been kicked out of a movie theater.
[x] snuck into a movie.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] got hit by a car.
[ ] fired a real gun.
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house
[ ] been arrested.
[x] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stolen something from your school.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[x] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] gone ice skating.
[x] cheated on a bf/gf
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[x] been exposed to laughing gas.
[ ] had a car.
[x] driven a car.
[] totaled a car.

Do you...
[x] feel loved.
[ ] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[x] sing along with your music.
[x] dance around the house in your underwear.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[ ] listen to underground hip hop.
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to classic rock.
[x] listen to new rock.
[x] listen to country
[x] listen to reggae.
[xxxx] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to hardcore punk.
[x] listen to pop.
[ ] listen to r&b.
[ ] listen to jazz.
[ ] listen to crooners.
[x] listen to emo
[ ] have hobbies.
[ ] skateboard.
[ ] do aggressive inline.
[x] snowboard.
[ ] ski.
[ ] surf.
[ ] skim board.
[ ] get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x-] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red
[x] like the color green
[x] like the color black
[] like the color purple
[x] like neon colors
[ ] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair
[ ] have short hair.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you...
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] blonde
[x] a brunette
[ ] a redhead
[ ] a darkhead (black hair)
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British/English.
[x] white.
[x] Italian
[ ] black.
[ ] Inuit
[ ] Mexican.
[ ] Asian.
[ ] a Christian
[ ] a Muslim
[ ] a Jew
[ ] a Hindu
[ ] POLISH
[ ] a scientologist
[ ] an atheist
[ ] satanist
[x] short.
[] tall
[ ] just right
[x] realistic
[] sick
[] mad
[x] lazy.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[] buzzed
[] high
[ ] caffeinated
[x] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] ticklish.
[ ] listening to music
[x] a virgin.